Mom

On August 1 my mom had surgery to remove a part of her intestines.  She did very well and came out of the surgery with no pain and wanting to walk.  She would go up and down in how she felt but mostly down.  She  struggled to breath and her heart struggled to beat.  In the end she lost the fight but is with Jesus and so she automatically wins the war.  I will miss her so very much.  I know that I will miss her more some days than others.  I have a no idea how I will get through the next few weeks but I do know where I will get the strength.  I will continue to take care of my mom with the same care that I did when she was alive.  When she was alive wow that is a strange thing to say.  That knot that has been in the pit of my stomach for the last day is not going away any time soon.  Oh Father you have to go in front of me because I can not bear to take the steps first.  I am all out of brave.  I am all out of brave.  I feel so weak.  Holy Spirit do this for me please because all I can do is cry. Father protect my babies from my weakness and use this somehow to make us all stronger.